“He will judge the world in righteousness; he will govern the peoples with justice.” (Psalms 9:8)
I am grateful for God’s grace and mercy in my life. I see it everyday and often wonder, “Why me?” But I’ve got to get something off my chest: I don’t always like the justice he doles out, especially when I’m the recipient…not one bit!
The other night my eleven-year-old daughter telephoned me in a rush of panic and fear, 300 miles away. Sadly all I could do was listen. The distance between us prevented me from putting my arms around her and letting her know everything was going to be all right. In short, I couldn’t be the father that she needed.
When I got off the telephone, I told Robbie about the conversation. She got right down on her knees, held my hand, and prayed for her. When she finished, I just looked at her and said, “He didn’t hear a word of it”.
Well that’s how I felt. I was frustrated, confused, and angry. I just wanted to scream at God, the same way Gene Hackman screamed at him through the character of Reverend Frank Scott in the 1972 movie, “The Poseidon Adventure”. Do you remember? A luxury cruise liner, the S.S. Poseidon, had capsized from a tidal wave on New Year’s Eve. When the dust settles, a handful of survivors, led by Hackman, a liberal, self-determined preacher, decides to work their way to the hull of the ship, which is now above water. Since everything is upside down, their decision to make their way to the hull proves far more difficult than they originally calculated, prompting Scott to give God a piece of his mind.
I shared my anger with my Sunday School Class the next morning. “Tell me,” I asked them, “Where do you go in God’s Word for comfort in times like these?”
What a wonderful group of people. I realized as we shared some verses with each other that all of us from time to time experience the same frustration, anger and confusion that I was experiencing. And I learned something else: It’s okay to let God know how you feel. As one of my class members said, “He knew how you felt anyway”.
Even Jesus got a little frustrated with God. He knew he was going to take on the sins of the world, but in the Garden of Gethsemane he said, “”Abba, Father… everything is possible for you. Take this cup from me.” (Mark 14:3)
I find great comfort in that verse. It reminds me that it’s okay to let God know when I’m confused or angry. How could you have a deep relationship with anyone if you can’t express your innermost feelings?
I am also comforted by something one of my Sunday School class members sent me this week. Strangely, it was a devotion, dated August 29th, the very same day I shared my anger with my classmates. It came from Oswald Chamber’s Devotional, My Utmost for His Highest:
“Every time you venture out in your life of faith, you will find something in your circumstances that, from a commonsense standpoint, will flatly contradict your faith. But common sense is not faith, and faith is not common sense. In fact, they are as different as the natural life and the spiritual. Can you trust Jesus Christ where your common sense cannot trust him? Can you venture out with courage on the words of Jesus Christ, while the realities on your commonsense life continue to shout, ‘It’s all a lie’? When you are on the mountain top, it’s easy to say, ‘Oh yes, I believe God can do it,’ but you to come down from the mountain to the demon-possessed valley and face the realities that scoff at your Mount-of-Transfiguration belief…Faith must be tested, because it can only become your intimate possession through conflict.”
When storms come our way, we often forget some of the most important promises that God made. I forgot a really special one: “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.” (Hebrews 13:5)
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